"The Little Things I’ve Gone Crazy Over"

 "The Little Things I’ve Gone Crazy Over"

I have never gone crazy about big things—

like crying over a bitch,

or wanting to kiss the beloved,

or masturbating seven times in a day,

or being depressed over a 9-to-7 job,

my belly getting some fat,

or losing weight from working night shifts,

not having any sleep at all,

or drinking too much or too little,

or having too much money,

or no money at all.

But I have gone crazy—

over a piece of quality paper,

or a 70 mm lead of 0.5 mm thickness in hard black,

or a color from my palette getting empty day after day,

or losing a few hairs from my mop brushes,

or some paint dropping on the floor

while I’m setting it in the palette,

or my watercolor paper getting too wet.

I’ve gone crazy over the little things all the time—

and I will never stop loving that little craziness I had and which makes me more and more crazy.